bounce

with much anticipation, i welcomed 2009 with a wide embrace.
i had a hard time trying to be enthusiastic about the coming year, afraid of what it may bring. 2008 was not really a good year, not just my year and i can't think of spending another year thinking nothing but problems and solutions (well at least some have been solved but there are still many that remained unresolved and left hanging just like that). maybe that explains the gloomy mood i had a few days ago..i was just so afraid...
but then again, i cannot be stuck in that gloomy state. i have to move on, rather, move forward and help myself to make things better at least. and so i told myself that i will never let anything get the best of me. period.
how am i gonna do that? with a lot of prayers and a stronger faith. to just be more positive about life. to learn to count my blessings than my depair. to believe that there is a GOD bigger and greater than my seemingly hopeless problems and to know that He will not bring me to a hopeless end (after all, He is the only one who knows what the future will bring, right? so i just have to trust Him on that). and to know that despite my shortcomings and imperfections as a wife and a mother, i am truly loved by a wonderful man and a dear son.
that's enough to make me bounce back to life. enough to look forward to a happier and better year.